Ramblings

I was sitting in church on Sunday when this thought popped into my mind "I am terrified to have a little girl". I immediately realized this is why I had such a hard time adjusting to the idea of it but I'm so happy and grateful for this little life!

And I look at this and I'm not so scared


Then I think of all the stages in her life that I will be a part of....

Will I give my daughter a haircut that makes her look like a boy?


Or support her when she thinks these head shots will get her lots of modeling jobs?


Will she choose good boys to date?


Will she have good friends and be a good friend to others?


I'm trying to be a better example for her already, I realize I'm not the nicest person but in teaching her to be better at everything than I ever will be, it will keep me much more accountable for my choices.

It's a freakin girl!

We had a very dramatic gender reveal and went in completely convinced it was a boy, had his name all picked out and everything....and I'm sure because we wanted it so badly, it turned out to be a girl. Not that I'm not happy or grateful or excited, just taken by surprise. It's taken a few days to get over the shock but yesterday I went shopping and bought some super cute outfits for her (NOTHING PINK!) and it made me happy. We started talking girl names but the best we've come up with is ChaNaNa, I mean why wouldn't you want to have your girl have the same nickname as your dog? We'll see what we come up with, I think waiting until we meet her sounds good to me that way we can match her name to her little feisty personality! But for now it will give us something to debate over....my sister-in-law gave me a great piece of advice to wait until Rob has seen me go through labor and then he'll just do whatever I ask of him! I like it!

I did decide how I'm going to decorate! I love this wall decal and the purple and with dark wood furniture it will be one sexy room!

16 Weeks!

I've just about made it to 4 months! Time has started going by faster and that's a good thing cause it means I've been working! I have most of my energy back and my only symptom I have found to be a problem is constipation! And might I say prune juice really does work, like almost too well! TMI???
Here are a couple really silly pics of the belly - can I just say NO ONE looks good like this!

And the view from my eyes!

Other things happening in our little household:
- Staying busy with my new calling - I have never been to so many meetings and have taken so many notes since my last class in college! I really do need an ipad now because I could just type up everything on the spot instead of having to write it down and then type it out...so time consuming! But it's been great so far and our next task will be feeding about 500 people breakfast on Saturday morning! If I was my sister I would be baking 500 cinnamon rolls but screw that, Costco muffins work just dandy!
- I found my earring I thought I lost on our way to Chicago almost 4 months ago! It was such a great moment to find them, I have felt bad about losing it ever since!
- Rob is super busy with work, I really just am so proud of him for doing it all on his own, he really is an amazing property manager and has been selling houses here and there - just so glad he is doing what he loves and it gives us so much freedom to spend tons of time together! Life wouldn't be as fun if he had to get up and do the 9-5 work day, we wouldn't have lunch dates almost every day, I couldn't go bug him in his office when I need some attention...and I just love the idea of throwing our kid in his lap when I need a break or a shower or something! He is the bomb!
- And my sweet Chanel - I just love her! I was having a rough day yesterday and she stayed by my side every second, we snuggled for hours on the floor, she's the best!